Here we go...

Please don't ask me to join you for nachos at Qdoba... because today I've finally decided to start doing something about being the big girl that I am :)  Yes, this is an embarrassing topic - but in reality, I know that just about everyone has struggled with their weight.  I'm certainly not the first and won't be the last.  Sadly though, this doesn't make actually losing weight any easier.  And for those of you that have ever tried it, it's hard.  Like, I mean, really hard. 

There's no way around admitting that I've pretty much always been a bigger girl... I mean, I've seen a few pictures from when I was 4 or 5, and I guess I was pretty average back then, but anything after that and you'll find I've got some pretty great Charlie Brown cheeks (amongst other things).  Genetics against me, I certainly never really helped my cause being somewhat of an emotional eater.  So when I would get sad or depressed about things in life, I'd gain more weight... yet when I was happy, I'd gain weight too!  Having been married to an amazing guy certainly hasn't helped - it's been the happiest year of my life, but my waistline would beg to differ. 

Wanting to be healthy and generally happier about my appearance (and don't worry, I'm not one to really put much weight on that - no pun intended), I decided it's finally time to take action.  And by action, I don't mean anything drastic. I totally give props to those of you that can hit the gym for hours at a time, and yes, the Biggest Loser is a very inspirational show, but that's just not for me.  The reality is that I have terrible knees, a bad back, and other problems that make my time at the gym not only not fun, but pretty unbearable.  And if this is going to be something that sticks, I need to not feel miserable or like a failure (which is generally how I feel at the gym).  I have done the whole Weight Watchers thing before, amongst MANY other attempts through various fads, and even though it's not as easy as Jenny McCarthy or Jennifer Hudson make it sound, it's something I can generally get behind: watch what goes into your mouth.  I'm not ready to count points, but I am ready to start making changes that relfect the WW ideas.  I can't promise big things, but I can promise small things that will hopefully lead to big things :) 

Thankfully, Matt is 100% behind me on this and has already offered to help sort out our snack foods and get our eating habits in a more healthy direction.  (That guy can eat anything, and I mean anything, and stay skinny.  It's maddening!)  I know this will be a LONG road, and one on which I'll likely fall down many times, but I feel like writing it here for people to see is giving me that extra motivation to actually take charge and not wuss out.  Wish me luck.  This will not be fun, but I know it's possible.  I welcome any tips, recipes, pointers, etc.  :)

Don't be upset with me if you see me out to eat or drinking a margarita, I mean, let's be realistic.  I want to enjoy life, and I think you can do both - be healthy and have fun - without feeling guilty.  So, that's where I'm at.  Sorry for getting all personal on you.  It's already 2pm and I've stuck to today's plan thus far, so I'm feeling good!